my boy's on his merajok mode again n again n again :(:(

bbbbbbbbbbb....... stop it can?

i love you la. don't sulk alrdy can.

FIZAH SAYS SORRY TO MR BENJAMIN.

ok Ain.. if you're reading this post diam sudah.lol!

i know i was supposed to upload my pics of my ice skating n blading dates

but I've super no time lah.

it's on facebook. if you want,just pop by to view.

you do have my password lor.

alrighty enuf of you n back to my baby boo =p

bbbbbbbbbbbbb........

da la da la... tmr i come down to your wrkplc n bring lunch for you can.

bb sorry la.

i still love you anyway right :)

muaxmuaxmuax!!

9:49 AM;

It's true what people say..arguments are bound to happen in relationships
I find it silly but when it does, I find myself helpless in that kinda situation.

Insecurity is naturally instilled in me the way bad smoking habits are to most.
For the past few days,weeks even, we've been arguing all day long.
And not a surprise that I eventually got tired of it.
People change.Surroundings change.Most things in life changes & will keep on changing.
Even feelings..yes.My feelings.
It's been changing & changing for the better since I knew you.

I'm not too sure why but I know that you're not happy.
You're not happy that you feel you've lost every bit of freedom you have.
It was never my intention to grab all your attention from you,leaving your friends with none.
But I need to feel that I'm important to you.
And till the day that I actually feel that way, we'll always have these constant arguments we've been having.

When we argue, promises are broken,we lose self-control and never seem to bother how our partner feels.
I've been trying to give in on more than one occasion & on your part I know you've been trying hard enough to work things out.
But again, each argument escalates to an even bigger one.
When we're both blinded by anger, we lost all good judgements.
We hurl abuse,say things we actually don't mean,do things that we both know we hate.
And the saddest part is that, no matter how badly I want to stop arguing, I can never get through to you when you're mad.

I hate this b, I hate the fact that we're actually arguing every single night..
And it's for absolutely nothing..nothing at all.
And for the fact that I've been tearing each night before I go to sleep is just making me feel so helpless about the whole situation.

But even then....
I love you. And i needed you to know that.
Nothing else matters to me.
I'm sorry I can't be perfect



'what's even worse,is that we don't remember why we're fighting.
so both of us are mad for nothing,
fighting for nothing,
crying for nothing.
but we won't let it go for nothing,
no not for nothing
this should be nothing to a love like what we got

oh baby sometimes I know it's gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now?
cos I can't sleep through the pain

I don't wanna go to bed mad at you,
and I don't want you to go to bed,mad at me'


:(

11:03 PM;

I hope you're reading this at midnight..
I know..lame shit cos I had just updated this afternoon in the office..
But the purpose of this very post is to wish you
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABY...


Ok f**k all those celebrations... despite all my whining to have one badly,
I need you to know that having you in my life is more than what I could have asked for.
You're by far the best thing that could have happened to me
(apart from all the arguments ey..hee)


And I might not say it often.. but u should know that I love you more than anything else in the world.
I'm sorry for all the shit we've been through but that has just brought us closer together,did it not? :)


Okay... Im going going gone to my aunt's plc now :(

But........
I LOVE YOU BENJAMIN KEITH WALTER :):)
& HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY (i know you hate it,but oh well.lol)


*big wet sloppy kisses for you*
MUACKKZZZZZZ

10:57 PM;

Stay away if you're sensitive of wordy blogs!

Cos I've no intentions whatsoever in uploading pictures in this post

&

I've absolutely no pictures to upload anyway.

I don't wish to explain why I've not been updating & I certainly don't have to.

Okay now for the less serious stuffs & much happier stories :)

To those who are celebrating Valentine's Day tomorrow, have fun!

To those who are not, SCREW THOSE PEOPLE who does! haha

okay...boifey doesn't believe in Valentine's Day or so he says.. but well..

I WANT TO CELEBRATE IT DAMN IT! LOL!

Bah! I will not force it him to do something he doesn't want to now would I? (or I just might. :p)

He's been rambling on stuffs like, 'Won't there be more years of V Day to come? Why is it so special? Do you love me only on Valentine's?' bla bla bla

WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO HAVE FUN.

I don't expect a bouquet of roses,a diamond ring,or material things from you. (it'll be good to have though.. haha)

Anyway,tough luck. Don't think I'll be even spending the day with him. GOSH!

He's working, I'll be away AGAIN & he thinks it's stupid to celebrate it on the 15th as a substitute for the 14th Feb.

sheesh. horrible eh?Guys have alot to learn..like seriously.

okay nevermind.. I'll celebrate it with my grandma B! haha

Haiya okay stop it bout V Day already la.

TO THOSE MORONS WHO KEEPS ASKING ME TO UPDATE MY BLOG CAN YOU PLEASE STOP IT ALREADY? REMIND ME WHOSE BLOG THIS IS AGAIN?

THANK YOU :)

3:45 PM;