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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Yeap..prolly another one of those essays yet to come..
I'm sick..really sick yet the only one i think of is him.
I've been trying to get him of my mind but I'm not able to.
This just looks like the re-run.
What does your msgs mean? I've no clue. One minute I mean the world to you. And at another, I'm just someone you knew.
Well anyways I'm over it.Over everything. I'm just not gonna bother.
You've never realize how much i cared for you.
We're no Firzah no more. We're on our own. YOU are on your own now.
As for me, I'm gonna try and move on from it all.
You're just another chapter in my life.
Thought i was his star,
Guess i was wrong, but see I'm strong
Won't take long for me to move on
'Go on ***, I'll be fine..'
8:26 PM;
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
fuyooooo.....tak boleh tahan lor!!! haha
what an event...and so I had to work OT tonight at metro woodlands.. goodness..damn shagged sia.
then again, I got to meet my dearest dearest sweethearts... Kak Linda a.k.a Mummy, Susan, Gem, Kak Lina and all the kakak-kakak & abang-abang woodlands..Taz, Razali, Nic, Abg Ramlan.. wow..too many to even mention. haven't seen them for quite awhile now.. precious la you guys. a bunch of funny crazzzzyyyyyy peepz. you guys make working there seem so fun. haha!!
YAY!!GOT TO PLAY WITH THE P.A SYSTEM or wadeva they call it la.finally.tempted to try that thing since ages ago.hehe.'paging 28,kindly contact the operator..' muahaha.. aiyo Taz duno how to respond ar..sleeping or wad sia at 3rd level!aiyoo.
Mummy, thanks for the coffee!oh yes, i love your scrambler la sey! super cool or what!! btw, do i really look tired? haha. i guess so huh. till a customer came up to us and ask me why are my eyes so red. lol!! caught by surprise la that one. a totally out-of-nowhere unexpected question. but hey thanks for the concern stranger. haha
I WANT MY HONEY STARS AND COCO CRUNCH!!!okay..out of point. but i really want it :)
alright...time for bed..been yawning since like forever. *yawnyawnyawn*
12:10 AM;
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
Early was the morn,
Flowers filled with dew,
I became somebody through lovin’ you,
Softly as a child,
Born in natural rain,
I predict the seasons to go unchanged,
As the sun shines...down on me,
I know with you my love is where I want to be,
Sometimes I go on through life thinking that love is somethin’ that’s not meant for me,
Hold on dear life,
Don’t go off running from what’s new
I became somebody through lovin you
8:58 PM;
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Honestly... can anyone just tag me and give me the real definition of a blog? cause seriously i thought a blog was supposed to be an online diary. PERSONAL ONLINE DIARY. Damn right we post our entries online. And obviously anyone can read it, tag it, WHATEVER IT. You're reading someone's online diary. Doesn't that mean anything at all? If someone types a whole long entry of you, cursing you for being a damn bitch for the longest time ever, you don't call that person up and beg him/her to delete the post off the blog. GOODNESS!!! SOMEONE needs a serious embracing reality check!
C'mon, you've been bitching bout others in your goddamn blog and when someone does that to you,you break down? kidding me!!
And if the other someone deletes off her post bout this laydee I'm so gonna get pissed off!!! In fact, I'm already pissed. But if you really do it (you know who you are) I'm damn speechless. I've never shouted at you the way I did before but you pricked me at the wrong spot today! aaargghhhh!!! I'm sooooooo mad!!!!!!
10:27 PM;
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
HapPy BiRtHdAy FIR bAbY!!
wow..like finally.. you're 21..hee. something you've been waiting for isn't it..
you wanted it to be something special huh. .may your friends make it worthwhile for you.
funny thing is I'm wishing Fir on my blog instead..i wouldn't want to msg him on midnight itself cause i figured everyone would be rushing to be the first to msg him..and i would wanna be the last..
but hey..nonetheless I've planned something out.. we'll go do it only when he's free.. *cheers*
n baby, my wish for you is to always always be happy n contented with life..
may you get to realize those dreams you've been telling me about..
I'll be with you through each and every step...
May you have the best birthday ever..*muacks*
'i became somebody through lovin you'
11:44 PM;
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
ok what the hell...what do i blog about now? haha... can't even think.. dengz!!
ahh.....this is it...i need help.....what should i get my baby fir for his birthday. it's between a Diesel watch and some Topman stuffs.. but Fir, you're not brand conscious right? hehe
what should i get sey... damn! i totally suck at this huh... k that's coz i've never done this before.i've never bought a guy anything throughout my entire 20 plus plus years of life.usually THAT someone would just take my atm card and use it to buy stuffs for himself.gosh. and funny thing, this is even more stressful than work. haha
n yay!!! meeting Noraini tomorrow..whole department's gonna go have seafood at one fullerton for dinner...hehe.. i like!!! shall update pics in my next entry..it's getting boring...YES AIN, I DO REALISE LA KECIK!!!! hehe.
ooppsss..mata da takleh angkat la..heh.
muaxmuax.
10:49 PM;
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
okay..i'm officially shagged. ended some work handover thingey at 12plus yesterday night...gosh..i don't even know why i'm so stressed out by all this...anyway thanks to my sweethearts, Noraini and Clarence....for staying out till super duper late with me...i really appreciate it alot alot...you guys mean so much to me la...what the hell am i gonna do without you guys around...haiz... have always had so much fun with you guys..Clarence, thanks for bringing us to Ichiban for some jap meal...i've been craving for it for quite some time now..heh
i'm still angry though that you guys are leaving me in this company alone..!!!
one after another, all the good ones start leaving... :(
i wanna leave too.. :(
BUT thanks for believing in me....i hope i can do this.. *keepin my fingers crossed*
and Jac, thanks for the hug...and the support...you're the best boss ever!!! *hugs*
the entire week, didn't even manage to check my emails, call anyone, reply to my msges...grr!!
Ain, thanks for calling & checking up on me...i dint forget you la...just super busy...no time...we'll catch up real soon ok hunz?im so sorry....*hugs*
and to all my msn chatters (the frequent ones i mean) hee.. im so sorry for being such an ass...signing in and out of msn like all the time....haha...had to run everywhere la in the office...can't possibly leave my msn on right...illegal lor!!haha..my colleagues tend to use my pc quite often..for god knows what reasons....including boss la...hehe
anyway anyway...not gonna brag about work and stuffs here...cause i'm very sure things are gonna get better... :) :)
aitez...peace out.
8:40 AM;
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Tuesday, April 8, 2008
shucks!! so little time,so much to do...my god! 2 days to absorb everything??i can't...lady, u know i can't.. even if i stayed up all night in the office i won't be able to do it...gosh.
anyways..back to the more important stuffs..hee..y do i keep thinking of him..?y does everything i do remind me of him..of us?just feels so restless thinking bout it...would anything ever happen between us?if I'd only knew..hmm..we will never really get what we want in life huh..that sucks.
n of course..a special dedication to Dad...will you please grow up, face up to your responsibilities n clean up your own mess?im barely 21 yet i have to go through all this...i can't be helping you out all the time..you know that...you jolly well know that... y can't i have a perfectly normal family just like anyone of you guys out there...i'm having a tough time at work n i still have to go through shits that happens in the family...sometimes i wonder...where did i ever go wrong...no matter how i try and stay away, you'll always be my shadow....for god's sake..i don't even live with you and yet i feel so troubled all the time knowing you'll call me up any moment to ask me for 'help'..what have you been doing Dad...?WHAT??! im through..im done...finished.
'tired..really really tired..'
9:10 PM;
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Monday, April 7, 2008
..if you just realize what i just realize
then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
just realize what i just realize
we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now..
if you just realize how much i care...if you just realize that i would be that strength of pillar you've been craving to have..if you just realize that you're never alone..if you just realize that i would never love someone else like i do you..if you just realize..if you just realize...
i love you~
10:01 PM;
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Sunday, April 6, 2008
h
ad so much fun yesterday...a day well spent i hafta say.finally...the four of us managed to meet up...rozi baby,yan,dada n myself..discussing bout samui trip..pening. im like so broke liao.haha..anyways, all of us had our own plans after 6pm so we went our separate ways from tamp.
as for me, went to meet fir with 2 of his frens at raffles shopping centre..ok la..quite fun..den mlm satu2 kene keje so it ended up with only the 2 of us..fir n myself..went to lepak at esplanade..this guy of mine is always so crazy n funny but hell...when he's sleepy he says the most unbelievable things..
'being in love with someone is not about making that someone your life.it's about 2 people living their own lives and still cares bout his/her other half. when being in love, the biggest mistake everyone makes is to trust him/her. coz you can never trust someone completely. dun put too much pressure in the relationship, lest things end up differently from the way u planned it to be.'
thanks for spending time with me and for taking care of me like u always do..N for sending me home at 12midnite even without your bike..haha..i seriously have got no idea how u went home.u didn't really walk all the way to woodlands did you?gosh.haha
i love you for always reminding me that things are gonna be ok.. thanks Firdaus!!
'im falling...'
11:34 AM;
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Friday, April 4, 2008
woohoo...rozi baby is back!!!finally! but sorry la korang...how to meet u guys tmr?it's mama's birthday lor..anyway that can be arranged..i've something super duper important to tell u guys..but promise tak boleh marah!!
oh man!it's 12plus...having fever n yet i just got home..wahlao!ok....thanks fir n gang..susah payah u all convoy motor antar me balik.i feel so honoured..lol!.so sweeeet!!sayang korang!!hehe....let me tell you..seriously..too many of them; can't remember their names..but every single one of them was like so sweet la sey.oh firdaus, thanks for taking care of me at the chalet..you stayed with me all throughout just to make sure this budak sakit was comfortable..honestly...i've never seen a friend so caring..thank you so much....*fiza syg fir*
'with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love'
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Wednesday, April 2, 2008
miss you la Danny boy (he's prolly the only one who tells me im beautiful each time we meet up)!!haha....after a long day at work met up with bestie, Danial n fren, Amir at lucky plaza for a game of pool....freakin hell...danny boy lost to amir!!!hahaha...4 times in a row..wth sia Dan..duno how to play dun play la...hehe..lucky sia ur gf not ard...if not tak paisey kepe bro!haha..
okay..just as i was about to quit,something weird happened at work..should i stay or what...HELPPP!!
ok..lets not get into that...yay!!!rozie baby is coming back hm in 2daysss......woohoooo....cant wait la!!
CaN't WaIt!!!!!!!
10:09 PM;
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008
i loveeee today.....somehow...heh. met up with an old friend of mine...she picked me up from work (so sweet!!!)..@ ard 6plus just as i was about to end work, my phone rang.Nur told me she would be waiting for me at civic plaza (surprise..surprise)..alah...sweet la..lol!...thx nur!!syg you la.. so went to fareast againnnn..its always fareast lor if nur's around...as usual...haha..walked ard bla bla...ended up buying a top...gosh.sinful sinful...
anyway....
...SOMEONE ended work early today...but SOMEONE didnt even offer to meet up for dinner..SOMEONE was at fareast too...but SOMEONE was with a fren..so i didnt even tell that SOMEONE i was there.blardy pissed with that SOMEONE. so i didn't reply the msges. blah!
ok...wouldn't want my blog to sound so depressingly bored for each entry...haha...kk..i'm done with all the bad dayssss.....moving on...i wanna go tokyo so bad. shall we plan a trip there girls??hehe. alrightey...wanna go dream bout it..heh. *ciao ciao*
'I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you..'
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